'Kay... I have really nothing much to say (or write) really...

But I must say the muse is coming rather smoothly for both of my story, Ayame and Crossing Paths until I get confused myself when to start writing. So I choose to focus on Ayame first then Crossing Paths.

So... for those who are eager for new chapter of these two, rejoice! And hope that I don't lose my muse in the middle of the making.

Hullo! 'tis been a while huh?

Here, I'm in holiday, though even it is supposed to be a holiday, it's not. I'm still as busy as in my school days. I even spend more time in the campus more often than usual. ~_~ *scratchscratch* hmm

I don't know if I manage to finish writing some new chapters for my stories. For Ayame, I already have the big picture of what in the new chapter but I have some difficulties with the beginning. The neginning is always important for me, usually when the beginning is smooth then the rest soon follows. I even already have the next chapter after this one. ^_^

While for other stories, I truly want to update Crossing Paths and Promise. Which means... What Are We? is on my last priority to be updated, unless I get smooth muse for the story. So for those who are striving for the newest update of WAW? pray, get your fingers crossed, and leave a review for those who haven't :D

That's the news for now. Maybe I'll write some more about myself or my stories :)

Here's a Quiz About Myself. Try it!

http://www.quizyourfriends.com/quizpage.php?quizname=060530111707-880152

I'm writing this to my friends... and my closest friends who are currently facing the most important event that will eventually decide their fate. Uh, I guess I'm a bit exaggerating it. Not really the most important really, and probably not that big of influence to life but for most of us it is indeed important... the final exam of the final year before university exam.

It truly felt like years ago I felt the same pressure and aggravation of succeeding all of those exams. Somehow I felt myself half awake living my life when I'm thinking of my life. The campus has become part of my life so naturally, falling into such routinity that I can no longer make a difference. I gradeated. I passed. I'm now in university. Simple facts, but to achieve it... is not easy.

It's strange to see my friends working as hard as I was a year ago as a third person, no longer as the first person... watching them from the sidelines, giving my support and prayer.

Strange... I should've been there with them if I hadn't chosen to remain in Acceleration class. I should've worked hard along with them, going to courses, asking one another how to work the answers. Those people... are the ones I know well, they are the ones whom I entered the high school together with, they are the ones I'm close to, both by interest and age, they are the ones... I wish to see again in university... in the same year. But... it can't happen... even if they do succeed, I'll be a year ahead them.

I don't regret finishing my school earlier than others but there are times... like these that make me feel nostalgic, make me wonder if I had another year. Time sure flies exceptionally quick for us, we started to enjoy ourselves rather late while others enjoy theirselves during high school. Oh well, this is just me... getting nostalgic.

I just want to say this to all my friends out there who are working hard to achieve your dreams:

Wish you the best my friends. Have faith in everything you do. Never give up and stop all negative thoughts from stopping you from trying your best. May Allah be with you in everything you do. Sometimes what we think the best for us is not always the best for Him, He The Almighty Who Knows Everything. He knows everything we know not. So... have faith and do your best  :)

Hello...Hello...Hello... Long time no see!

I do notice that this blog of mine is getting rusty since I've never updated it ever... along my story's long hiatus caused by school.

Blame it to school guys XDD

So many activities. So many works to do. Nearly no quality time for me to get a good muse for my story. Honestly Ayame's newest chapter has long finished but has yet been beta-ed, and I just realized it's nearly a year I haven't updated my first fic! T_T Oh no... While What Are We?... doesn't have much development... still two pages long...

Do you know my friend SHaPbY? The one I often mentioned in my stories, the friend of mine who helped me with the stories? The one whom I managed to influence to like SasuHina? If you're following me since the first post in this blog, you understand what I mean ^^

So, basically to put, she's my first SasuHina victim XDD Her initial reaction was the same like any sane and normal people, SasuHina? Weird~! NaruHina or SasuSaku is better.... You fill in the blank on your own, the standard non SasuHina fan or canon pairing fan's reactions, their reaction is kinda alike... how uncreative XDD LoL. Then I shove her the first chapter of WAW? And she kinda went, WHERE'S THE NEXT CHAPTER?!! Not exactly like that... but somehow like that *ignoring the loud protest coming from a certain person..grins*

Neways, she also started a SasuHina fic! ^_^ Titled Prime Minister: Uchiha Sasuke. Ne, isn't it the title Sha? Maybe you noticed it by the interesting summary that contains the word 'pedophilia'? Quite of a controversy huh? But it's one way to attract readers ^_______^

She seemed very enthusiastic, reminding of myself when I started What Are We? We have lots in common in this first try in SasuHina story. First, we both have started a fic before the story, a fic with Original Character in it as main character. Second, our first fic, despite it's pretty good and original, didn't gain many reviews. Third, our SasuHina story truly exceeded our expectations! The first chapter gained more reviews, if not triple of our average reviews of our first fic. So you can imagine how much we were in euphoria.

She asked me all the stats of What Are We? And she told me that she'd try to catch up with WAW? stats. I only encouraged her, there is a huge possibility she might surpass me since her story is unique in every aspect, and has better English, mind you ;p While my story? You know, arranged marriage is really an old thing. I fully realize it, but I love that idea! So don't blame me on that one! But I forgot to tell her that the stat has been reseted at least twice so... the stat is not the real stat. Anyway, ignoring that! Ganbatte! Surpass me Girl!

Having so many reviews making you a little big headed at first, honestly. You become more and more oriented with the amount of reviews you got. But as the story goes, I learn not to get to full of myself and such thoughts is better get rid of. Not wrong, but better ignored. There are reasons why I can reach that conclusion, first, I make another fic and I personally think it's better than WAW? but got less amount of review and SasuHina has its own loyal readers. Oops, don't get me wrong with the latter, but it's a fact. You can't help to notice the same person over and over again in every SasuHina story. Not a bad thing really, SasuHina fans have stronger bond with each other because of it. I know most of them -or at least familiar with them- and even chat with them. And we're truly one big family! ~We are family! song in the background~

Back to the topic, so basically SasuHina has its own readers, and with its uniqueness, it becomes rather exclusive... because of most people thoughts of this pairing.. duh -_-=3 and it's rather easy to get reviews. While canon pairings... has more readers and mostly don't want to touch stories of this pairing. BUT! This is only a thought, it may be right in some aspects, and may be wrong in many others. Especially I've just finished a confusing and stressful Calculus exam @_@ I'm kinda still error. Darn that SHaPbY, no Calculus, Physics and Chemistry for her.... So.. don't flame me! *hides behind a wall, peeks a head*

This semester will end May so... expect an update guys! *winkwink* Don't forget to read both my and SHaPbY fics! See ya! ^^

Enough of the grim news in the previous post... So let's talk about merrier things, shall we?

First, I've got Tennis in my physical education and fortunately a little bit in the evening... at least I'm not going get too burnt XDD or my already brown skin from birth becomes more tanned.

Second, I've got Indonesian language (or how to write a good paper, basically) and environment science or science environment, dunno how to translate it to English. I heard those two new subjects are better than my previous one, Technology Concept that gave us ridicolous tasks and tests, though it was rather interesting. Simply to put, I heard this two new subjects won't give us much homeworks.. I hate homeworks.. some things are better done only in campus. ;p

Though I prefer English than Indonesia subject since I'd learned the new language... not because my lack of nationalism, but because of the much simpler rules of English. Don't believe it, try to compare them then. It's only difficult because we're not used to English. While Indonesian, despite the fact you were born, live and work there, you still can't speak a proper Indonesia, the Indonesian we use in daily conversation is already much altered. -Yeah, probably I'm only exaggerating, I hope-

Third, I'm getting more busy and excited as there are plenty of activity to do as nearing the end of semester. There will be a try out for my friends (you get what I mean here?) who are going to try to get into the university before the real exam, and I've applied to become a part of the comittee. Yippe! And I intend to apply in becoming a group leader for next year initiation. Dumdumdum... time seems to fly so fast huh? Hope I'm not wasting it... 

And... I'm updating Ayame... at last...after long hiatus... though there are some things that needed to be fixed first...

...Yep, the new semester is coming soon... just right ahead.

Probably some of you already know how much I did badly last semester. I must retake two subjects in my second year. There is no such thing as short semester in my university. Too bad.

My worst fear is being postponed. Well... you wanna know what's my worst fear other than getting dropped out from school? Oh well, not really my worst fear.. I won't tell you my real worst fear.

My father's wrath.

*imagines...shudders*

XDD Not that scary really but... he's a type of a person whom you should avoid when angry. You won't dare to be in the person's radius. Cool huh? XDD

Anyway, back to the story. I've told him about my awful grades -AT LAST- and fortunately he didn't seem to angry but then in a stern voice he added, if you failed again in the next semester, I would be really angry.

Dang, scary...>_<

Lol ...then again it was my fault. No one else to be blamed but me. Even though I had accepted it, it was still difficult. Ah well, that's human.

So this time, I'm more determined not to fail... at least no need to retake any subjects. I should be more careful in two certain subjects that I failed last semester and a new subject called Basic Design of Industrial Engineering or something like that in English. ^^; Gotta get through this semester.

New semester, here I come!

Well, today is my birthday...

The long awaited day when I turn to seventeen... at last, while most of my friends are already eighteen... that's the downside for entering the university a little too early. Heck, I don't even have any ID cards or Driving liscense, yet I already have my university card. Ha! A record.

My parents keep questioning me until my birthday what I want for my birthday. For days... I'm trying to rack up my brain for a birthday present. I've never celebrated my birthday since... elementary school? Yeah, if I'm not mistaken. And I think I've gotten used to it.

The only difference from any other days that in my birthday, I get either calls or messages (handphones, email, etc) giving their best wishes from my closest people. Honestly, mostly my family, rarely from my friends. Some are nice enough to send a short message from the handphones, which is pretty considerate for them to remember my birthday.

Return to my blabbering about birthday present... many things went through my mind what should I get for a present. From IPod, new CPU, new printer and scanner, new handphone, digital camera that small enough to fit your palm, PDA... and I realize how expensive those things I'm considering for a present. Even though I know sometimes my father can be very generous, yet when he asked I simply answered 'Dunno' nonchalantly.

Oh no, don't take me wrong. I really want those things, yet I can't bring myself to ask. There are some consideration, like... my handphone is still fine, no need to buy another, my CPU is still working properly though often encounter some problems with the speed, viruses, and memory, IPod... not really effective somehow though I'm interested, digicam... he bought one for my mom... it's kinda weird for me to ask the same thing and I doubt she lets me to borrow it, PDA...it's the most expensive thing to ask though it'll be pretty useful. In the end, I'm not really interested to have any presents.

I don't really understand why. Is it a good thing or not? I think I've just got an E... um two Es I think in two most important subject. Which is known as the worst grade for... umm, whatever it is.. It's awful... I haven't told my parents openly about it... yet I got a reaction what may happen when they find out. Can't help to feel a little down... Little down would be an understatement, really... I'm sad, yet I'm more afraid that I'll disappoint my parents. It's not funny if because of my grades, I'll be kicked out from school after a year.

I know they have their hopes in me, and how proud they were when I succeeded to enter the university... I can't imagine when they found out my grades are failing, at least only two, but an E must be avoided at any cost. And I got not only one E, but two! (well, good chances of that, but I'm still praying and hoping there's some mistake there... I'm pretty confident of my grades yet can't really comprehend what I do wrong to get an E). I'm pretty angry to myself, but get over it. But I doubt I'll get over it when my parents find out. What a way to repay my parents...

I love my parents dearly and hate to disappoint them, I realize. I know they rarely complain or openly show their disapproval when my grades aren't too good, I just want to do something right for once and it seems I ruin it. Again.

Great, huh? Oh well, all I can do is pray and hope for the best. May things turn out for the best. Dunno about my fanfics for now, considering my focus is partly still on my grades. This might be the worst birthday, but... who knows?

.....It's been....

...more than fivemonths since Ayame was updated....

...more than a month since What Are We? was updated...

-sighs- Is it really that long?

I have a reason here.

First, for Ayame, I'm totally stuck... the chapter contains an important incident that will affect the team very much and I can't really think what to write... I think I'll need a whole empty week for a muse to come...

Second, for all of my fanfictions, school.... truly. Since it is nearing first semester final exam, it seems all assignments are doubled. -_-=3

So... I can't promise any update... Sorry... I suppose next year I will, unless my muse comes smoothly. :) See ya!

ARGH!!!

Oops, sorry for that... It's just me being a little too hyperbolic. I've just read over my testimonials in Friendster and I just realized how my friends there considered as um... very smart in each their own way. Not only my friends in friendster but also in campus. We've got a task to collect our friends in the same major's comment about us and most of their impression about me is other than my funny voice (hehehe, it's rather squeaky or animeish) is rather about the same thing, me being smart and intelligent. At first I felt so flattered that my friend thought that way about me but now... somehow it's getting annoying for myself...

Why?

'Cause I'm fully aware that I'm not as smart as they considered me to be. T_T I used to be one of the best in my class in high school but my grades were rather descending in the last year. Now, my grades in the first middle semester exam is... totally not reflecting that what my friends told me is true... Calculus... I only managed C and in Physics... Do not ask... So you can guess I had E - a totally awful E! *starts to cry a river* and even when I tried to tell the others the truth of my oh-so-ordinary grades, none of them believed it! Arrrgh! Can't they believe that I'm able to get bad grades too? TT_TT *more tears* And that the fact I can get sooooo lazy. XDD

Image...

When one has already had an image of someone, it's rather hard to change it. And sometimes... the image can be a burden... a pressure to live up or maintain the image. Well, not really... it's up to ourselves how we regard it. I don't really mind, it's plain annoying in a way. I don't really care of my own image in front others, I just want to be seen as myself yet it seems... Oh well, let's see what they will think of me in the future. 

And.. in case you're wondering why I kept their testimonials, it's not for show off or anything like that, simply I don't have many people who want to give me one. So I approved every single testimonial they gave me voluntarily. Oh yeah, I'm probably known by many people, but I am only close to few people. I'm that type of person, rather loner? Half true ^^

Another New Story from ME!

Hahahaha, I'm getting too active these days, aren't I?

Well, not really, the story is already made long time ago and it was held back by SHaPbY to be edited. Now since the editing is over, I posted it in fanfiction.net

It is another Naruto fanfic, but this time it's not concentrated only on one pairing and it happens in Alternate Universe, in our world, to be more precise, Japan.

Anime>Naruto>Crossing Paths by Audriel